my life

My life have had good times and bad
most time of my life i've been hoplessly sad
Days have felt like years
sad music have been bouncing in my ears

days go by, years pass while wondering, how's my life gonna be
through the dust and shadow i couldnt see
people have come into my life, and some have past away
near and dear ones, i still had so much to say

it have been ups and downs, life have been hard
every new person i met i always had to be on my guard
afraid to be dumped, afraid to be betrayed
everywhere i went, my feelings never obayed

tears runnig down when i wanted them to hide
day by day, a part of me died
i almost lost my mom, i lost my dad
when i look back, my life's been very sad

i doubted my self so may times over and over again
i felt like i always carried a cloud with rain
years went by, felt sicker and sicker, more helpless, more weak
i sat in my apartment , staring at the walls couldnt speak

i tryed to grab the sunlight in my hand, but it always slipped away
if someone asked how i felt, i said, it's ok
but it was a big lie
cause all i wanted was to die

it came to a point when i couldnt take it anymore
and i went to get some help, from a peson i never before had met
afraid of my own feelings, afraid to be trapped in my own net
he helped me with my problems , helped me to get helathy again
now i stay in the sun, and not in the pouring rain

i'm a human, i always worry for something new
i was healthy again, but i missed something, i new it was true
the feeling of lonelyness was always coming around
everytime a couple kissed, i wanted to fall to the ground

i doubted that there was love for me
me and a man, happy together.. i couldnt see
i thought i would live my life alone
and that nonone would miss when i died and was gone

but i was wrong, there is a man for me too
he's here, gives my life a meaning, a reason to live
a reason to laugh, a reason to be who i am
a reason to believe in life, in future, in hope, in love
you saved me
i love you