My own battle

My tears are running free
How could this be?

Feel my life is not worth living
I have forgot the word happiness, the word forgiving

I see myself in the mirror on the wall
Where are the happy girl ? i guess she's not there at all

Feel like a monster with a lonely heart
Even if soemone gives me a hug, i feel like a hundred miles apart


My soul is bleeding slow and it's in pain
Even if the sun is shining, the steps i take are just filled with rain

I need a new beginning, in a different place
I want to love and have a smile on my face

Life isn't ment to be easy , you not always know what to do
But some things are so hard to go through

Someone told me, even when you're weak- you're strong
But still i don't know who i am or where i belong

Deep inside i know, to be happy, you have to love yourself
I guess that's the true love, take care of mind and heart.. good health

But what do you do when you are lost?
Right now my heart and mind have it's own holocaust

A game by their own rules, use my body like a playground
Every autumn is the same, myself i lost and still havn't found

i know there's hope
but my eyes can't stop lokking on that rope

Thoughts passing by, dark thought's .. not know what to do
Marie, come back.. please.. where are you?




(" a poem i wrote to get thoughts out of my mind.. have a hard time of my life right now.. please don't copy it without my permission if you like to have it or share it, thank you ")